Kubbra Sait known for projects like ‘Sacred Games’, ‘The Trial’ and was last seen in Shahid Kapoor starrer ‘Deva’ has penned her story in a book. Her autobiography is called ‘Open Book’ and she’s opened up on many of her tough experiences in it. In a recent interview, Kubra shared more on the things she’s written in the book, like undergoing an abortion.
The actress shared more about her abortion experience during a chat with Bollywood Bubble and said, “When I went through the abortion, I don’t think I was being strong at all. I was just too weak to take it forward. I didn’t have the courage or the strength to say that if I don’t do this, then I will live with it. I felt very weak at that time. I felt hollow. I felt like I was not worth it at all. But what came out of it much later was strength. That you made a decision for yourself and stood by your own thoughts. You broke stereotypical patterns, you broke societal norms and no one knew about it. I went by myself and got myself through the abortion. I didn’t tell anyone.”
She further also recalled how she never told anyone about it. She realised it when a friend was complaining to her that she was not paying enough attention. “I met one of my girlfriends and she went on this trip and said, ‘you’re not listening.’ I just told her. ‘Who went through an abortion? You?’ And that’s when it hit her and that’s when it hit me and that’s when I started weeping because I was like, ‘I have not told this to anyone’. No one knows that this is what I have gone through.”
Sait spoke about being scared at that point in time as it was a life-altering decision to go through an abortion. “What if I died? And you are taking this decision all by yourself. No one knows and no one cares. And this is not a small decision of your life. You don’t know how it’s going to impact the rest of your life,” she expressed.
Kubbra also shared another experience and said, “May be 5-6 years later, while I was bleeding heavily, I was shooting for a travel show. I used to feel hot, sick and I was extremely cranky. I realised I didn’t tell my director and she was this incredible lady. I didn’t tell her because I don’t think anyone would understand. When I wrote about things in my book, I realised that I don’t care that anyone would understand. I just wrote it for me.”